Joie de vivre

I've been surprisingly content lately. Not in all ways, not at all times, but it is a gift of God and I'm grateful. If my life never gets bigger than this, I can be happy. For it is, ultimately, a good life.

I'd tell you some of the reasons that it's good, but it would come off as being incredibly egotistical. For much of it is being thankful for things like the *cough* intellectual pursuits that my *cough* brilliant mind likes to engage in. Which comes awfully close to saying "Oh Lord, thank you that I am not like all these other poor louts who use incorrect English and don't know who Fibonacci is and enjoy low class foods like spam!"

< /mild poking of fun at self >

(No offense to spam-lovers.)

Speaking of which, in a sort of way: does anyone know of the name of, or links to, the whole thing explaining how the zodiac signs show the Gospel? I remember hearing a brilliant young man explain it all once, how God put His "sign in the stars" and it was brilliant, really truly brilliant, but now I can't remember how it went or where to find it.

For those who voted, you might be interested in knowing that I did indeed buy those 12 books and they are now in an--honestly--three foot pile by my desk. I carried them in while my mom was on the phone so she doesn't know yet. o_O

I've been wondering why I like the things I like. Maybe I think too much; maybe I over-analyze things, maybe I'm just weird. But I wonder about these things...is it just random? Or did God put them there, and if so, why?

I love books and information. Am I a librarian because those are things I like, or did God give me those likes so that I could be a librarian? The job was a very much God-given thing: too many things converged perfectly at once without my help for it to be other then divine intervention. But did He take my likes and give me a job that fit them, or did He plan me for this job while I was yet in the womb and thus plant those desires in me? If I was rabidly passionate about numbers--which I am not--would He have made me an accountant instead?

(As a side note, I can think of several people here who also have jobs perfect for their likes/passions: crystallia has always had a tender heart for hurting people and equuschick has a tender heart for hurting animals, and both have jobs to match them perfectly.)

I like Odd Humor. Is this because God wanted to give me friends who also delight in Oddness, or did He pick those friends for me to match my humorous streak?

It makes me wonder about the future. I delight in things Italian. Is God likely to do something with this someday? I swoon over uniforms. If I marry a man with a job that requires a uniform, will it be because God gave me someone to match what I already liked--or has He been preparing me for this man all my life?

Or maybe it's all moot, since God's Divine Plan works either way, and probably both at the same time. Maybe I'm foolish for trying to understand it.